What am I doing with my personal life. Broke knee last year, still no signs of complete repair. Not even swimming or participating in any of the sports for which I blatantly spot my knee injury as the reason for not participating.
I made one resolution roughly 6 months ago, to take care of myself in a sustainable way. But today, when I look back, I haven't done anything measurable which fulfills even the beginning 10% of my so called promise to myself.
I am feeling helpless suddenly, as I am reviewing my physical body from head to the toe. I can feel the cry of almost every part which are asking only one questions - "why we aren't being trained, periodically lubricated and taken care of when we always supported you". I feel bad. terribly bad.
One of other reasons that amplifies my current feelings is my aging body. It will not remain the same as time will pass. If I will not take care of it, it will ditch me at some point or other in my life. I am worried. Lots of things are going over my head right now. What should be my next step? How can I bring back the flexibility, the agility into myself. This is one question that I need to answer right away.
The whole point of writing this as a blog post is to keep reminding myself of my resolution each time I visit my blog page. Hope I will be back with some good news..:)
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Sunday, October 23, 2011
New Life: few weeks down the line
Hi all,
Seems like I am settled and transitioning into Carnegie Mellon culture. Today afternoon, someone cracked a joke on life of grad students. It goes like this:
“you know you are a grad student if you start your assignment on the day it’s posted rather than the day it’s due!!” :P
And I hear a lot of jokes on phd’s: most of them (I guess all of them) reiterates about the “Patiently hoping for Degree” part…..:D — well that’s true!!
Let me write about what happened/changed in last 6 weeks or so:
- I became old (turned 24 recently!)
-Started to like “regular” coffee’s here, with 3-4 sachets of sugar! {yuk!! plane coffee sucks, extreme bitter in taste) (number of sachets should converge to zero as years’ pass by, expecting a slow rate though)
- Back to studying mode – feels good!
- Did many mistakes (in first 2 weeks) while solving simple operators like integration, multiplicaiton etc etc. (ab zyada muh mat khulwao..:P)
- Cooking: doesn’t deserve this down on list. Transformed into "the Chef"
- Intend to makes less jokes on people (I have absolutely no idea what happened to me!)
- Attended 100% classes (record till now)
- Chicks..lots of them (finally studying at an University rather than an Institute)
- Now, I don't get time even on weekends! so sad!
Also, I would like to focus on what haven’t changed (so far):
- Working hours at par with what I was experiencing at ZS (except that you can’t crib on your work!!)
- Lots of work, daily task plan, weekly meetings, conference calls and cisco vpn – all the same.
- salary (now in $$)
- Nokia e71….still there..:)
Going to sleep now….will write soon about studies, lab and research!
Seems like I am settled and transitioning into Carnegie Mellon culture. Today afternoon, someone cracked a joke on life of grad students. It goes like this:
“you know you are a grad student if you start your assignment on the day it’s posted rather than the day it’s due!!” :P
And I hear a lot of jokes on phd’s: most of them (I guess all of them) reiterates about the “Patiently hoping for Degree” part…..:D — well that’s true!!
Let me write about what happened/changed in last 6 weeks or so:
- I became old (turned 24 recently!)
-Started to like “regular” coffee’s here, with 3-4 sachets of sugar! {yuk!! plane coffee sucks, extreme bitter in taste) (number of sachets should converge to zero as years’ pass by, expecting a slow rate though)
- Back to studying mode – feels good!
- Did many mistakes (in first 2 weeks) while solving simple operators like integration, multiplicaiton etc etc. (ab zyada muh mat khulwao..:P)
- Cooking: doesn’t deserve this down on list. Transformed into "the Chef"
- Intend to makes less jokes on people (I have absolutely no idea what happened to me!)
- Attended 100% classes (record till now)
- Chicks..lots of them (finally studying at an University rather than an Institute)
- Now, I don't get time even on weekends! so sad!
Also, I would like to focus on what haven’t changed (so far):
- Working hours at par with what I was experiencing at ZS (except that you can’t crib on your work!!)
- Lots of work, daily task plan, weekly meetings, conference calls and cisco vpn – all the same.
- salary (now in $$)
- Nokia e71….still there..:)
Going to sleep now….will write soon about studies, lab and research!
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